New year?

     So, starting off the new year? Well, a few days into it anyway. Has not been easy, isn't it supposed to be a fresh start? Or something like that? Well, I mean it is a fresh start, but not for the better. I always thought "New Year, New You!" was supposed to be a good thing. It just seems I can't fit into the "groove" of 2012! But, just because the year changed does it really make it that different from the year before? Especially when that year was less than a week ago?
     I learned that my family doesn't truly like me, that I was never supposed to be here. Even when I am not close to my family I know that there is one person that is there for me...we will call him A. A has been in my life for about six, seven months now. People would say we are crazy for falling in love so fast and without really knowing each other.
     Well, here is the story. I had been talking with a friend that I met on one of those dumb sites that aren't really dating sites but they aren't for "Just Friends" either. Anyway, we were on the phone playing truth or dare, I was dared to text this number pretending to be some girl that A apparently had a crush on, or thought she was cute, or something! So, I did and I suppose after that was over I should have stopped texting him, but I didn't! I eventually told him who I really was, because we hit it of so greatly from the very start. I felt like I had known him for years, my whole life even, though I had never met him in my life!
     A and I talked all the time, I was always excited to get a text from him. Even though I had a thing with the guy we met through, I couldn't stop thinking about A. Once, me and his friend sort of "fell through," I guess if those are the right words, A and I started to date. That was back in September. Yes, yes, I know we had only known each other for three months, but why not take chances? Yeah, it could destroy everything, but couldn't that happen anyway? Plus, enjoy it while you have it.
    So, A and I have been dating for, wow, about four months now. That is so hard to believe. But, what can I say when you are happy you know it. Even when you are 1,195 long miles away. Wait, did I mention that. Well, yes kind of, I guess. But, yes, A and are in two totally different worlds. Yet, we still understand each other to the point of sometimes it blowing my mind. We have talked twenty hours a day before (well, minus sleeping) and we still haven't run out of things to say.
     Basically, my life is crazy. I don't fit into it. Yet, when I talk to him, everything fits. Just like it is supposed to.  That is really all I have to say for now, it is almost midnight I need to finish some work and hey maybe see if that someone wants to talk later. You should too.
                                                                     
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